Where to start with this blog!
I had a very tough week last week. I was at a pause in my life because confusing thoughts came in and flooded my mind. My heart was harden and my mind was all over the place with things that was going on in my life. I was numb and blank. I felt as if I was the only person on this planet, because it was so plain to view my life for what it was. LIES, LIES, LIES and more LIES, came into my mind. I seriously had to renew my thoughts and focus on God. The enemy HIT ME HARD. I was so scared to make another move because I knew it was just going to be filled with ugliness and some failure of my heart toward others around me.
Nothing was making sense to me, nothing was working, nothing was helping. Finally I sat down and started reading my bible. It was the only thing I knew was going to help in that moment. Gods truth! Don’t get me wrong I was praying every moment I had but my heart wasn’t really in the conversation. When I sat down to read and focus on Gods word, little by little my numbness went away. God prompt me to read the book of Romans. Why, at the time I had no idea, but I knew I would find my answer when I read his word. So, there I sit and I’m reading and verse after verse I can feel my harden heart crack off the shell around it. And there it was the words I needed to hear. This verse was the Ice breaker. The healing I needed in my moment of struggle.
We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance. And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love. (Romans 5:3-5 NLT)
Tears of joy just poured out and right there I could feel my God lifting me up when nothing else around could. I felt his presence fill me and I was in Awe of what just happened. You see this past week the enemy came and knocked ME down because God was working in my husband and directing him in the path God has planned for us. Plans that the enemy wants us to fail in. While God was working the enemy finds ways to mess things up for Gods children. But that devil isn’t strong enough to win, Our God is stronger and always has the Victory.
I praise God for his continued guidance and faithfulness to be by my side. When my view was dim my God came in and brightened my view to see clear. For those who tried to lift me up in my time of weakness, Thank you and please forgive me for my lack of focus. To my wonderful husband who never gave up on me and gave me love even when I didn’t deserve it, Thank you for being such a wonderful Man of God. I love you very much and I’m blessed to have you in my life and I’m proud to be one with you.
Thank you for comforting me and strengthening me when I needed it most. You knew exactly when to come in and give me understanding. Thank you for softening my heart and renewing my thoughts. Forgive me for my unfocused mind and heart. Thank you for your patience and unfailing Love. I give you all the Honor and Glory Lord.
In your precious name I pray, Amen.